Today was a very enjoyable and very predictable day off from work. I picked up a prescription at the drugstore, bought a cup of coffee at Dunkin' Donuts, went to the grocery and the health food store. I made a few phone calls, read my email and did a lot of blog visiting. To soothe my winter-weary feet I got a pedicure. I tried a new nail salon and liked it a lot. Not much change at all.
What has changed is my attitude. I've taken the idea of a Perfect Word for 2012 very seriously and given it a lot of thought. I realized change alone wasn't enough. I need to embrace the change that I know may be coming in 2012.
For the last three years I have planned to retire from my present job this summer. Yet, as the time grows closer, I grow more anxious. I worry about money -- though I've run the numbers at least once a week. I worry about meaningful things to do, though I have a dozen ideas in my head. I worry about being lonely without seeing my work friends daily, though there are a number of close friends I would like to spend more time with, and not just in scraps on weekends. Instead of shrinking from the approaching changes I want to embrace them and enjoy all that will change.
I feel that this is a graduation of sorts and I am the girl leaving high school and Hartford for the bigger, wider world. I remember being excited. I don't remember being scared, though that must have been part of my emotions in 1968. There were things I missed about home and high school, but there were so many new and exciting things in my college life. I know I embraced change then and I need to embrace it now.
Here's to change and newness and all the excitement 2012 will hold!
