Monday, November 19, 2012

It's Almost...

...Christmas Time in the City!

Truth be told I haven't been the perkiest little buttercup this last week. I'm physically tired, not sleeping well and just out of all energy, physical and psychic. You can see it in the lack of blog posts at what is usually one of my favorite times of year.  I've been unusually cranky and not especially interested in doing very much. I've gone to work and the laundry has gotten done and I've grocery shopped, but I haven't had energy for much else. As I was walking to the subway this morning I realized how sad and angry I was. That realization was somehow freeing and I didn't try to pretend that all is well. It's not. This has been one of the toughest six months of my life and this buttercup is wilted. 

So how did the perky title above happen? My group at work gave a breakfast this morning and I arrived to find they had set a wonderful array of foods -- including homemade pumpkin muffins -- outside of my office door. It was hard not to smile with this terrific surprise. The day went okay and I refrained from barking at anyone. When I got off the subway I was surprised by one of my favorite sights. 

The scaffolding for the Christmas trees! Very soon the aroma of evergreen will fill my walk home. 

Am I back to where I was a month ago? Not close to it, but I pray that each day will be a little more healing. I'm not going to pretend all is well, but I am going to make an effort to find the joy, even when it is hidden from my view. 

Wishing you, too, hope and joy! 


Nellie said...

Buttercup, you have my continuing wishes for improved health - in all areas! You have endured a lot, that is true. It is important to take time for your healing. Blessings and hugs to you!

Lorraine said...

Oh, sweet friend, sending warm thoughts and prayers your way! Hope you are feeling better and your outlook is brighter real soon :)

Gloria said...

Hey there! My fellow NY'er!!! I have NOT been blogging, so I am sorry to hear you have not been feeling well (I do not know what you have endured, per the previous comment that I see on here!); but I got my email saying that you followed me on Twitter so I followed you back!! :) I have NOT been blogging... I've wanted to and have not done so... You know how it is, I'm sure. But I was going to send you an email after I got the alert about Twitter and I couldn't find your email on my list. I looked under buttercup and...NOTHING. It just 'gets' me because I KNOW that we emailed each other in the past!! OK, enough whining! Just wanted to wish you well and say thanks for your Twitter "shout-out" (repeating what the "kids" say, LOL!) and I am now following you, and I wish you well and a Happy Thanksgiving to you!! xxoo
p.s. If you want to update me and share via email, I'm at: gloria(dot)vincent(at)yahoo(dot)com

Chatty Crone said...

I bet New York gets really dressed up for Christmas! Happy Thanksgiving. sandie

Mevely317 said...

Uh-oh. When Buttercup writes her name in lower-case, (to me) that's telling.
While I hate knowing what all you've been through this year, I appreciate your AUTHENTIC voice ... that you feel free to express your-SELF.
Hoping that your tomorrow's a better day!

Theresa said...

Oh my little Buttercup Friend! Isn't it wonderful to have friends to help you get your day going better:) Sweet treats for my PRECIOUS friend! Keep putting ONE foot in front of another, Christmas smells will make you smile for sure! BIG HUGS and PRAYERS from your Georgia friend:)

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

Sweet wishes for Hope and JOY to you ! Where there is hope there is cause for joy.

Jacquelineand.... said...

You've had a very rough time of it and I applaud you for realising and respecting it. You are not, and could never be, a 'wallower' so I suspect that by the time Christmas rolls around you'll be ready to greet the season with cheer!

Denise D Hammond, CGFM-Retired said...

I am sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. I was hoping that your lack of blogging meant you were having fun doing something exciting. Please take care of yourself and do not overdue. I'll be thinking of you.

Maggid said...

Especially Grateful for YOU . . . For YOU exactly the way you are.
Grateful for your honesty, and for sharing your efforts - and to know it's getting better . . even if it seems s-l-o-w and even if it is a little at a time.

I feel as if we are close chums, although we've only met here.

My world is way better because you are in it.

Happy Thanksgiving,
Love & Love,

pudwinks said...

So sorry to hear you feeling like this. Your posts always make me feel warm and fuzzy (probably because I love your city so much too). Keep smiling and I can smell the evergreen from here already. Mr M x

Amrita said...

You too BC. Take care

Melissa said...

I'm hoping you feel back to normal soon. I'm sorry it's been so tough. Please know that people care and are thinking good thoughts for you.