...Christmas Time in the City!
Truth be told I haven't been the perkiest little buttercup this last week. I'm physically tired, not sleeping well and just out of all energy, physical and psychic. You can see it in the lack of blog posts at what is usually one of my favorite times of year. I've been unusually cranky and not especially interested in doing very much. I've gone to work and the laundry has gotten done and I've grocery shopped, but I haven't had energy for much else. As I was walking to the subway this morning I realized how sad and angry I was. That realization was somehow freeing and I didn't try to pretend that all is well. It's not. This has been one of the toughest six months of my life and this buttercup is wilted.
So how did the perky title above happen? My group at work gave a breakfast this morning and I arrived to find they had set a wonderful array of foods -- including homemade pumpkin muffins -- outside of my office door. It was hard not to smile with this terrific surprise. The day went okay and I refrained from barking at anyone. When I got off the subway I was surprised by one of my favorite sights.
The scaffolding for the Christmas trees! Very soon the aroma of evergreen will fill my walk home.
Am I back to where I was a month ago? Not close to it, but I pray that each day will be a little more healing. I'm not going to pretend all is well, but I am going to make an effort to find the joy, even when it is hidden from my view.
Wishing you, too, hope and joy!